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Sunday, May 2, 2010
I guess it's gonna have to hurt...
9:34 AM
"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."
I hope this is the case... because right now I feel like I just ripped out my heart and threw it into a meat grinder. It hurts. So much.
Right now I'm having a hard time picturing how things will get better. I mean... my heart looks like ground beef! How can I recover from that?
I ended a relationship with someone I really and honestly loved because I knew that's what my Heavenly Father wanted and expected of me. I know I'm doing the right thing. I know I am. But why does the right thing have to hurt this badly?
I've been replaying this song in my head all morning. I told him two hours ago... and I know it's soon, and it's hurting... but it will get better, with time. It has to.
I have a list of things I want, the things in my Patriarchal Blessing. "These blessings are predicated on your faithfulness and your desire to receive them." I have the desire. I want those blessings more than anything in this life. Now I just need to work on my faithfulness. But I took that first step, and I have to believe that if I keep moving in the right direction, things will work out for my good.
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I'm sorry Kate I love you.
it happens, love.
you'll make it through. and then some day you'll look back and see how far you've made it and be so proud of yourself. :)
Breakups always suck, but you will get through this. All of us are here for you too!
I hear ya girlfriend.
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Breakups suck; I've been through several.
Interesting that you linked Carrie; that song was the first thing I thought of.